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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:36

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

A kid threw a stone at my car. I confronted his mom (who was nearby). She said, "You can't prove it was my son." How should I have reacted?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She wouldn,t have been !

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I never cut or harmed myself..

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I will be 64.

She married twice! .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He knew the spot.

This is soul school!.

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

What does it mean when someone tells you they love you and want you in their life, but doesn't want to commit?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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Would this be the day?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Is BPD real or just an excuse?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Put me off passion for life!!

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My mum and dad in the seventies!

All the time i was locked up.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So whats the point in blame.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I don,t even have a pension.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was seconnd youngest,

I write beautiful poetry .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

When she asked me how she looked .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

(And it was in our own minds.)

So, i spoilt her more .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We were not on the streets..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was very sick at this time too.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was scared of men, in general

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I said to her

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

What did i know ?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I could never make a relationship work though!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Comes on , in middle age.

I have no regrets .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

As i do to all so called friends.?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We all went to grammer schools

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was 9 years of age.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Who then, do I blame.?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I think the readers, may guess!

She was in good health!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Ive learnt so much.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Especially a lifetime of it.

My family never makes their pension either.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Was to survive, this bastard.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She found it foreign!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

It was going to be , some day.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But it wasn’t much.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I waited trembling.

And i lived it daily.

He resisted the act ,that day.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But, we were locked up after school.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My life is so biszare .

Im still living with it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

One cannot live in the past .

I couldn’t, believe it.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She loved him until the end.

Im dying but, im not bitter.